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Jan. 8th, 2024 10:55 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
semi_stableWhen Bucky wakes up in an unfamiliar bed with a headache, he isn't exactly surprised. He's been drinking more than usual lately, being a little too careless, because it's bad enough coming to terms with the fact that he's attracted to men. Realizing he wants his best friend in some carnal, impossible way is a little harder to handle.
He still likes women. He still loves women, and lately he's been feeling the need to prove that to himself, going out multiple times a week to drink and pick up girls. He always has a good time, always loves it, so he doesn't understand why he still looks at Steve sometimes and wants. It's a problem that he doesn't know how to solve, and can't seem to ignore.
The last thing he remembers is shooting back cheap whiskey at a jazz hall and flirting with a girl with gorgeous cocoa skin. She drank gin like water and Bucky had tried to keep up with her, which probably led to him being in a stranger's bed with a hangover and a big blank spot where his memories of the night before should be.
A sea bird squawks in the distance and Bucky turns his head, surprised to see the ocean just yards from a door leading out onto the sand. Had they left Brooklyn?
The bed next to him is empty but there's evidence that someone slept next to him. The blankets are thrown back and the other pillow is twisted. Bucky yawns and reaches up to stretch, rubbing at his eyes and then looking down. He's in a white tank and matching boxers, which sort of surprises him. If he can't even remember the night before, how was he with it enough to put on his undergarments?
He can hear movement outside of the bedroom and he wonders if he should get up and go out there, or just wait here, when there's a sudden meow from his left. He turns his head to see a very fluffy white cat staring at him almost suspiciously, sitting primly with its tail covering its feet.
"Hello," he says to the cat. "Don't suppose you could tell me who lives here, huh? Always embarrassing when I can't remember names."
He still likes women. He still loves women, and lately he's been feeling the need to prove that to himself, going out multiple times a week to drink and pick up girls. He always has a good time, always loves it, so he doesn't understand why he still looks at Steve sometimes and wants. It's a problem that he doesn't know how to solve, and can't seem to ignore.
The last thing he remembers is shooting back cheap whiskey at a jazz hall and flirting with a girl with gorgeous cocoa skin. She drank gin like water and Bucky had tried to keep up with her, which probably led to him being in a stranger's bed with a hangover and a big blank spot where his memories of the night before should be.
A sea bird squawks in the distance and Bucky turns his head, surprised to see the ocean just yards from a door leading out onto the sand. Had they left Brooklyn?
The bed next to him is empty but there's evidence that someone slept next to him. The blankets are thrown back and the other pillow is twisted. Bucky yawns and reaches up to stretch, rubbing at his eyes and then looking down. He's in a white tank and matching boxers, which sort of surprises him. If he can't even remember the night before, how was he with it enough to put on his undergarments?
He can hear movement outside of the bedroom and he wonders if he should get up and go out there, or just wait here, when there's a sudden meow from his left. He turns his head to see a very fluffy white cat staring at him almost suspiciously, sitting primly with its tail covering its feet.
"Hello," he says to the cat. "Don't suppose you could tell me who lives here, huh? Always embarrassing when I can't remember names."
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Date: 2024-06-24 07:25 pm (UTC)"The bad things just haven't happened yet," Bucky says quietly, brows furrowed as he reaches out to drag his left hand down the dog's back, soothing himself with the repetitive motion. "Loki said things will be back to normal soon. I wonder if I'll remember being here."
He swallows hard and turns to look at Sylvie. She's so beautiful and she's been through so much that he has no idea about. Her and Loki both seem to have been touched by some sort of darkness that Bucky could never possibly understand, at least not as he is now. It frightens him to think that he does at some point in the future, but it's balanced by a comfort in knowing that he wouldn't be alone. "I don't want to forget you. I think you might be the most interesting, beautiful person I've ever met."
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Date: 2024-07-04 12:07 am (UTC)About her, the things she's done, the people she's killed and the violence she's wrought. He has, too, but she won't go that far into it. Not with him like this.
"Loki does always seem certain things will work out," she says. "Though in this case I suppose he has Darrow history to lean on."
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Date: 2024-07-08 08:37 pm (UTC)"Am I not unbearably charming in the future?" Bucky teases, smiling over at Sylvie even though the thought does frighten him a little. "I can't have changed that much."
He takes a deep breath and lets it out with a slow sigh, pressing his hands into the sand so he can lift himself up and move a little closer to her. He reaches out and puts his hand on her knee, prepared to move it if she gives him any sign that the touch is unwelcome.
"Maybe there's a lot that I don't know, but I know myself. I know my heart," Bucky tells her, one corner of his mouth quirking up as he studies her face. "And if I've put myself in this crazy situation with the two of you, then it wasn't for no reason. Maybe I don't know why, but I know that I must love you. Especially if I do change as much as you say I have, because I have a hard time doing that even now. So, you don't have to tell me anything. It wouldn't change anything anyway. I know what I know and that’s enough for right now.”
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Date: 2024-07-15 06:41 pm (UTC)He hasn't been hurt yet, just like she hadn't been. Now she's this version of a Loki, someone who lost it all, and seeing Bucky before it's all come down around him is just painful.
"It's enough for right now," she agrees and lays her hand on top of his.